Story Telling

everybody craving for happiness. i'm no exception.

but is happiness exist? i mean the real real happiness. like what we see in fairy tales or pictures.

a prince finally get his lover, they date, got married, the lover becomes a princess, and live happily ever after.

what a fairytale.

but in reality, everything seems to be contradictory. too much ups and downs. what we think is our's, could suddenly become other's, a sweet candy could become bitter. some thing is easily change to another thing. i'm thinking abt this lately.

when a couple still dating, they treat each other like sugar, sweetly and nicely. but after they were married...

everything's changed.

perhaps some ppl never see this situation, but i did. it's a real story that ever make me think that it's better to live alone.

the story is sbt someone i know. since i knew abt it,i feel frightened, afraid, scared, trauma. that's not the first real-story i know. still have some real broken-relationships stories. so i feel falter abt having a relationship. so many questions on my head. what is a real relationship is? hurting each other gradually? big no. what does it meant to be? how to maintain a relationship as sth last forever? how to protect it? how to make the one we loves happy? how to keep understanding each other? could we hand in hand till the end of life? i still keep on figuring out the answers.

"something that you pursued painstakingly, would be something valuable when you have it ; something that i maintain painstakingly, would be something very meaningful to me if i could have it."